My Life- Day Two

A lot has happened since yesterday when I left. When I left my room, my sister was crying along with my mom. She was putting a bandage on her arm. Sometimes I wish my parents would get a divorce so this wouldn't happen. But if they did, it would ruin four lives. I don't want my sister's life to be ruined. Sometimes I thought about taking little Reanna with me, and we would run away. I would ask Chris to go with me too, and I'm confident that he would.


In school today I was walking with my friend Holly when I found something in my locker. It was a CD and I think it might be from that nasty Laura chick everyone hates but has to be friends with. I know how everyone uses her as their way in, and everyone tries to follow her. But she's a nasty mean chick who already slept with 50 guys, even the ones that weren't single.




Chris wasn't at school today. It's not a big surprise though, he doesn't show up a lot. We talked on the phone, and I told him everything about yesterday. He said "mhm" the whole time, like he was listening with one ear and the other ear was listening to something that actually mattered. He's so sweet though, I had to let that one slide.




After I talked to Chris, Holly called me and said Amy wanted to meet up with us. Amy gets into a lot of trouble but she's a good friend. She's gotten suspended three times and she has a tattoo and nine piercings total. I LOVE her for that. So anyway, when Reanna fell asleep for the night I pushed myself out the window. I hope my parents don't start screaming at each other again, Reanna will wake up and there won't be anyone to make her go back to sleep. I went to Holly's house, which was 4 doors down. Amy was already there. When I went in Holly's parents weren't there. I felt really happy. They said we were going to Justin's house. Justin is Amy's boyfriend, and he was in a gang.




When we got to Justin's house he was just waiting for us, and he wasn't even wearing a shirt. He gave us a bucket of water balloons, and it's nasty because he said he peed into them. Good thing he gave us rubber gloves. He told us that we were going to throw them at the house across the street. I asked why and he said that that's where Stevie lived.
Stevie's retarded. And I mean REALLY, like mentally disabled retarded. He had this weird thing called down syndrome. He has to carry a box of tissues with him all the time because he drools a lot. People made fun of him all the time. It was funny but kind of sad.




Justin said him and Amy would come out in a little bit. He said he had to do something. Which was pretty much true because Amy and him starting having sex in the room. It was only for two minutes though.




We started to throw the balloons. There was only one for each of us. We got into the yard. Then he said go and we threw them and ran. It was fun but I kind of felt bad.




We left him and Amy at his house. She was moaning by the time we were by the door. I was going to get in so much trouble if my parents find out.




When I got home Reanna was still sleeping. She shares a room with me. I looked for my parents but they were sleeping. It was only nine though. They don't go to sleep until like, midnight.




That leads us to right now. I really want to talk to Chris because we've been talking about what we would do if he came over when my parents go to work.

My Life, Day One.

If you looked at my life right now, you wwould think that it was a mess. This is the only thing I can go to right now. I want to stay anonymous, but I want someone to listen to my feelings.

My parents have been fighting a lot lately. Every time I'm sitting in my room, I hear shouting and screaming, and sometimes I even hear things crashing against the wall. It hurts to swallow, and my vision gets blurred with tears. I wish I could fix whatever's going on with them, but I know that I can't and it maked me feel sick to my stomach. It makes both of them mad when I come home with F's all over my report card, and it gives me a knot inside my stomach. I hope they don't get a divorce. My wall of protection would crumble right before my eyes, until them chipped parts are sitting isolated by my feet.

There's only one person in the entire world that makes me feel better. His name is Chris, and if I could, I would spend every second of everyday ith him. He's my world, and I will never let him go without a fight.

If I could, I would do so many things with my life. I want to be a photographer, or something that inspires change to the world. I can't bear to think that at the very moment I'm typing this, a girl my age was watching her mom die in Africa.

I've got to go for now. My baby sister is crying. I'll be back tomorrow, I'm sure there's a lot of things that will be worth talking about by tomorrow.